Today has been hard.

It's difficult to say the reason why, but some days are just harder than others.

I'm not strong any more.. I confused it to my guy and do you know what frightened me the most?

The fact that it felt good. It felt good to say I cry sometimes and I try to smile through the tears.

Sometimes you need to look at the positives in life and right this moment, that's what I'am doing.

I feel alone... I miss being held... I miss feeling safe... 

But isn't that what makes me strong? Or at least attempting to be strong.

I feel like I can't breath right now, like I'm boxed in all my fears or doubts. 

I'm trying to believe in hope...

It's just hard when you feel like you have no-one to talk to.