Mistakes...Good or bad?

Do you ever wish you could back and change all your mistakes? 

But what if those mistakes made you the person you are today....I never used to be like this and I used to be able to just be me. Not care what people thought of me nor worried what people thought. That was the way I had always been and then one circumstance changes it all....Just a few minutes, some extra seconds but it feels like forever when your stuck in the middle.

I wish I could change it....Yes if I did I may not of become the girl I'am today but I may be happier or at least have some more hope that I could survive alone if I had too and I would depend on people too much. I could look in a mirror and feel happy that it was only me standing there. But thats not the case and seen as I cant turn back time I guess I either become the person that I didnt want to be, The person thats weak to other people....Or I can try and fake the happiness, smile through the tears and just hope that I can hold onto the people I love.

I already know I'm going to choose option 2....and thats what makes it worse.

You can look someone in the eye and loose all faith that the person you love is still in there...I would know.

But when you look at yourself and see a stranger looking back at you...What do you do?

I'm terrified of everything lately and thats not okay with me...I've become afraid of things that I've always known...But how can you get rid of a fear that is too far away to grasp? 

I guess you just have to learn how to deal with it....

- Kristy xoxo

Which one...?

I feel lost in my life right now..I guess I live up to my nickname.
It seems like I'm at a cross-roads and I really don't know which path to take.


The first is filled with love and a bit of happiness but also would contain loneliness and loosing the last of my family.


The second is a risk and will probably fail, It would be a big change and involves someone I miss royally. I would loose two people but gain one.


The odd's are off.
I wish I could look into the future to see what my life would have become, at least it might help a little.
Life is such a gamble lately.


So that only leaves the question...Which path...?


-Kristy xoxo

Bright Ideas For An Awesome Day

1. Get enough sleep the night before your awesome day.
2. Clean your room the night before so that you wake up to a nice clean room.
3. Have a refreshing shower or a nice warm bubble bath.
4. Pick your favourite oufit or one that flatters you.
5. Eat a healthy breakfast.
6. Go for an early morning jog.
7. Read the newpaper.
8. Have a cup of tea or coffee.
9. Have scones or muffins with jam and cream.
10. Let someone else drive.
11. Spend your day with friends or your family or your loved ones.
12. Go to the beach.
13. Go shopping and spoil yourself.
14. Get a haircut. 
15. Put your toes into the ocean.
16. Be around people that make you feel good about yourself.
17. Say a prayer.
18. Do something that you have been meaning to do for a long time.
19. Spend some time on your favourite website.
20. Smile!
21. Tell a joke to make other people laugh.
22. Do something for the poor.
23. Eat your favourite food.
24. Watch your favourite tv show.
25. Spend some time with kids.
26. Go onto your favourite social networks.
27. Read a book.
28. Don't think about things that make you stressed or angry.
29. Express your feelings in art or poerty, or by talking with an understanding person.
30. Spend some time with your pet. Animals love attention from their owners.
31. Go to a park with a group of friends.
32. Sing a song.
33. Cook something.
34. Pick a flower in your garden.
35. Write in your diary.
36. Avoid arguments and be nice to other people.
37. Page through a magazine.
38. Gossip (but not too much).
39. Laugh.
40. Buy someone a gift.
41. Dance.
42. Make new goals.
43. Use a nice cream or beauty product.
44. Go star gazing
45. Watch the clouds.
46. Kiss your sweetheart.
47. Tell your friend a secret.
48. Learn a new word.
49. Give yourself a break.
50. Fall asleep with a smile on your face.    

-  Miss K Hathaway xoxo

    30 Things I want to do before I die.

1. Fall in love.
2. Dance in the rain.
3. See more of the world.
4. Have a 'The Notebook' kiss.
5. Go on a road trip with friends.
6. Become braver.
7. Have a family and give them the life I've always wanted.
8. Learn how to play guitar.
9. Hold the smile in place.
10. Finish THE dress at the back of my closet.
11. Be brave enough to show the real me.
12. Have a perfect Christmas.
13. HSITSATW (code)
14. Become the person I want to be.
15. Make me life more worthy.
16. Go to Paris.
17. Learn how to put a basketball through the hoop! 
18. Get a butterfly tattoo on my hip. (If I manage to do it without a needle!)
19. Get the snow picture.
20. Hand down my journals to my future child. 
21. Learn how to drive.
22. Learn how to draw better.
23. Catch a ride on the back of a motorcycle.
24. Learn how to whistle.
25. Have the guts to cut my hair shorter.
26. Have less fear.
27. Meet my brother's.
28. Tell my mother the whole truth.
29. Learn how to talk Spanish.
30. Go to a ball/dance.

   - Miss.Kristy.Hathaway 
      xoxo

Today has been one of those day's when everything doesnt seem to be working. 

Everything doesnt seem to have a reason...

What exactly is the reason for waking up in the morning? 

What exactly is the reason for even staying put...

Running sounds freeing but you can only run so far until the past catches up with you...I would know.

Freedom. 7 letters, one word, one meaning. 

Sometimes I long for that and sometimes I just...sometimes I just want to give up. Just drop everything in my life and leave again to attempt to make a second start...again. 

Is that even possible anymore? 

Is it possible to have the perfect life but it's in fiction? 

Is it possible to regret even having happiness because it's so agonising when it's lost?

Is it possible to wish that you were born on a different day, at a different time, from the different people?
Is it possible that you've been making mistakes since you learnt to speak? 

Is it possible to be in love with someone that you've never even met?

Is it possible that someone could tell you all the right things, But not really mean them?

Is it possible that a happily ever after could still happen?

Is it possible one day someone is going to look me in the eye and say 'Stop faking that smile'?

Is it possible that in a few weeks I wont even remember this day?

Is it possible that one day I will be settled down with a family and children?

Is it possible I'm making a mistake by moving?

Is it possible she's going to let me down again?

Is that possible.....

Sometimes when I close my eyes I wish that when I wake I'm in a different place...and I know the place I want to be now...But sometimes I wish I just wouldn't open my eyes again....

Ever wondered if somebody is thinking about you at the exact moment your thinking about them? 

I can't keep my mind from thinking and worrying about him...But thats stupid isnt it?

I mean, look at the situation....

I really don't know any more....

Next time I make a wish, I know what I'm wishing for...I just don't know if I want it to come true or not.

Until next time - Kristy xoxo